One of our boys had gotten into trouble running his mouth to us. My husband and I had taken away a many of his privileges.  My son was just plain miserable. He was 17 and struggling between the 2 worlds of being either a teenager or an adult. I am sure he thought he could conquer the world because he was 17.  We were much more concerned about the world conquering him.

I had been going through the gamut of emotions of hoping he would go to college and seeing he had his eyes set on the military.

  • Will he make it through boot camp?
  • Have we prepared him to face the world as a young adult?
  • Will he ever come to know the Lord?
  • Will he go to war?
  • Can I handle it if he gets killed at war?

Those were all normal worries that Christian moms have and they boil down to how much we really trust our God. If I am honest, I will say no to every one of those questions and still be successful.

God’s measure of success is so different than ours. In Luke 16:13-16, “‘No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money. The Pharisees, who loved money, heard all this and were sneering at Jesus. He said to them, “You are the ones who justify yourselves in the eyes of men, but God knows your hearts. What is highly valued among men is detestable in God’s sight.” When it gets hard around the Dillard house, I have to remind myself often that it is God who searches the heart and it is God who will make my heart what it needs to be to glorify Him.

Even knowing this truth, it’s still hard to look at my teenager who struggles every day and want to ease his struggle with lessening the boundaries and appealing to his feelings. I want my teenager to turn to Christ when it gets hard, not what makes him feel good.

When God brought His people out of Egypt, He had to teach them to trust Him all over again. He did that by caring for them in certain ways. In Deuteronomy 8:3-5, it says, “He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD. Your clothes did not wear out and your feet did not swell during these forty years. Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the LORD your God disciplines you. Observe the commands of the LORD your God, walking in his ways and revering him.”

It’s hard to think that God will have to change my son’s heart in ways that will cause him to hunger. That’s pain for my son! Who would wish that on their son? I would!! I want God to change my son, to change his heart. Only God can do that. The pulls of this world are very strong. Caedman’s Call has an old song called “The World” and there’s a line that says,“This world has nothing for me and this world has everything.”

Lauren Dillard